Thinking of a Guajolote #2

My period came back for the first time since the Guajolotita. That's 2 years and 5 days since LMP (first day of last menstrual period.

Naturally our conversations shifted to possible Guajolote #2: should we? are we ready? childcare expenses WHAT?

Actually, The Hottest Computer Scientist in the Universe said something to the effect of great, now we can have another one! Whereas I came back with a bunch of concerns (as listed above). But I agreed, sure, let's see what happens.

I did more or less night-wean the Guajolotita by around 14 months, in part for my sanity and in part to help my period return. However, day to day (night to night!) boob use is inconsistent. Sometimes I can keep her off with a bottle, sometimes she insists. Sometimes I'm too tired to remember to go get a bottle before going to her.

Anyhow, between the night wakings (and night comfortings, really) and random boob-fests, I feel like my cycle is all over the place. Pre-baby, in those 5 months off birth control pills, I had a 29 day cycle. To the day, every time. Today it's Day 32. I don't expect that I am pregnant, but rather that ovulation was delayed due to more-than-usual nursing.

Though last night, I had this freaky vivid, scary dream - something to do with the kiddo being hurt or in danger and I was with her but I hadn't been able to protect her somehow. She woke up A TON last night (yay sinus infection) and I was in a 15 to 40 minute window of sleep before she woke me from that dream. After which point I just slept on the floor next to her mattress.

THCSITU is pretty astute. When I told him about the dream, he asked, "So does that mean you're pregnant already after all?" I laughed and said I don't think so - but I do not usually have scary dreams, and the only time I really had freaky-vivid dreams was during pregnancy.

OTOH I was also overly sensitive/critical to more than one person on Facebook today too - either this is PMS or I am pregnant, cuz something is going down with my hormones.